The Need to Grow Up

Well, read something my mom put on Facebook. And can't help but feel part of it refers to me. Even if it wasn't, I still feel that way. This always happens. I have been afraid to grow up, I'm almost an adult and I still can't drive. How sad is that right? Well, I guess it's time for me to start now. So, even if I'm still a kid at heart I'll start trying to grow up. Even if it is scary.

Philippians 4:13

Again?!

I feel stuck....again. I don't know exactly what God wants for me yet. But it would be nice to have a record deal in his plans. Why would I have such strong Wants for this in particular? Maybe it's because I want to prove I can be better than I am right now. I can force myself not to be a shy, awkward person. That's how I feel sometimes. I stumble over my words and I can't get the knowledge out that I want people to see. Is God telling me to wait? Am I being selfish? Am I being a burden on people with how I'm living my life? I can't drive yet. Does that annoy or anger my parents? These questions always pop in my head. It drives me crazy. Why can't I be brave enough to take big steps like other people? Why am I always stuck?!

Starting Over

Recently I have started over in many things in my life. One way is inspired by a book I'm reading, "Practicing His Presence", where I will be trying my very best to think of God and have him on my mine at least one second every minute. It's hard, but for starters I always bring my mind back to Him as as often as I possibly can remember. It's like playing THE GAME. (yea, you just lost). I hope that plenty of you attempt to do the same. I was somewhat successful the other day, and I felt an amazing joy and peace come over me all that day. So I will continue to arrive harder for God in my life.