Again?!

I feel stuck....again. I don't know exactly what God wants for me yet. But it would be nice to have a record deal in his plans. Why would I have such strong Wants for this in particular? Maybe it's because I want to prove I can be better than I am right now. I can force myself not to be a shy, awkward person. That's how I feel sometimes. I stumble over my words and I can't get the knowledge out that I want people to see. Is God telling me to wait? Am I being selfish? Am I being a burden on people with how I'm living my life? I can't drive yet. Does that annoy or anger my parents? These questions always pop in my head. It drives me crazy. Why can't I be brave enough to take big steps like other people? Why am I always stuck?!